I just wanted to take a quick moment to say thank you to you, my dear readers and friends, for your support over the past year. Regular readers of the blog know that this has been a tough year but, through it all, God has been faithful and provided comfort through friends far and near. And in the midst of the darkest times, I've tried to seek Him more — to know more fully what His will is so I can better align my life and my actions with it. It doesn't take long to figure out that it's a [……]Continue reading →
Clean as a Whistle
In the fire that ignites my bones
It's in the water that brings life to my soul
It's in the blood that washes me clean
Scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real.
Cormac McCarthy — "All the Pretty Horses"
I went back into the office today after working at home for the past three months or so. It was good, I guess, to get back to something more normal but I gotta be honest. I'm gonna miss working from home. It's a pretty sweet gig. Hanging out in either jeans — or some days [……]Continue reading →
Politics in America
Politics is the art of looking for trouble, finding it everywhere,
diagnosing it incorrectly and applying the wrong remedies.
One of the reasons people hate politics is that truth is
rarely a politician's objective. Election and power are.
Politics is the art of choosing between the disastrous and the unpalatable.
John Kenneth Galbraith
Don't worry. This is not that kind of post. I will not be espousing any candidate or be arguing for any position or ideology. There's plenty of that to be found out there if you want it. Believe me, you won't have to look very hard. [……]Continue reading →
Good Days and Bad Days
If you had a different attitude
You'd still have good days and bad days
Kaiser Chiefs — "Good Days Bad Days"
You take the good, you take the bad,
You take them both and there you have
The facts of life.
When you're going through treatments like this you have good days and bad days. Yesterday was a bad day.
To be fair, up until now they have mostly been good. Up until now these treatments have been more like things that I had to do every day before I went back to being mostly normal. Intellectually I knew why, of course, but [……]Continue reading →
Medications and Emotions
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
Michael Guglielmucci — "Healer"
We are stretched to make room for wholeness.
Treatments started last week. A week ago today, to be exact. Today marks the beginning of week two. And all in all I can say, so far so good. Obviously I can't make any pronouncements about the entire process at this point. It is, after all, only one week. And the first of several, at that. Everyone involved, including common sense, has said that the first couple weeks [……]Continue reading →
Signs of Life
Most of us never stop to consider our blessings; rather, we spend the day
only thinking about our problems. But since you have to be alive to have
problems, be grateful for the opportunity to have them.
You left me barely breathin'
I've had time for the healing
Now I've opened my eyes
I'm showing signs of life
Journey — "Signs of Life"
Home, is where I want to be
But I guess I'm already there
I come home, she lifted up her wings
I guess that this must be the place
Talking Heads — "This Must Be The Place"
I [……]Continue reading →
An Unexpected Journey
Life is not what it's supposed to be. It's what it is.
The way you cope with it is what makes the difference.
— Virginia Satir
I was going to hold off on writing anything more until I had put this health stuff to bed but this is apparently going to take longer than I anticipated. So I may as well document it, huh? To do that, though, I have to give a bunch of history. You can skip this part if you don't care.
A few years ago, I had a whitish area show up on the bottom and side of [……]Continue reading →
Random Thoughts #2
- I suppose it's a good thing that I keep looking for another hole in my belt that isn't there.
- In a related thought, I suppose it's time to buy a new belt.
- It's true what they say, there's no such thing as a snooze button on a cat that wants breakfast.
- With losing weight comes the need to buy some new clothes. I've recently purchased a couple pairs of button fly jeans which is what I wore in college. So far, this is as close as I've come to a mid-life crisis.
- Well, except for one misguided can of mousse about seven years back.
Back to the Shadows
Take all the time you need to heal emotionally.
Moving on doesn’t take a day, it takes lots of little
steps to be able to break free of your broken self.
— Tere Arigo
No matter how bad you want a person, if your hearts are
in two different places, you’ll have to pass and move on.
— Alexandra Elle
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.
When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.
— Lao Tzu
This post has been a long time in coming mainly, I think, because [……]Continue reading →